Learning to play

Hi.

Tue, 03 Aug 2010 20:04:09 -0500

I haven’t posted in forever.

No one reads it anyway.

I’m so boring!!

Whenever I read books about blogs people actually read eachothers blogs.

>.>

Maybe I should try some other blog sites.

Don’t worry I’m not abanoning this one :)

No one wins in war.

Tue, 20 Jul 2010 11:15:46 -0500

I miss him so much..

Sat, 03 Jul 2010 22:12:38 -0500

I was just watching the video my uncle made in memory of my dad.

It brings me to tears everytime.

And I want to cry.

Yet I’m so tired of crying.

I oddly enough, even though it makes me so sad, love the video of my dad. Because it reminds of me of him, and I’m so afraid to forget him.

I look at these pictures of him, and him with me and Alexander and Mom, and I feel so bad because he didn’t know then that my mom would divorce him and a few years later he would die.

It’s not fair to him, or to me. Or to the rest of my family. I hate not knowing what happened. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

And as I sit down here and secretly cry, maybe my Mom is upstairs secretly crying as well.

I miss him, and I love him. But that’s not going to bring him back. So I have to keep him alive in my memory.

I have to remember what he looked like, what he smelled like, how it felt when he hugged me, the sound of his voice, and how he told me he loved me.

I’m so afraid to forget.

CANADA DAY!!

Thu, 01 Jul 2010 13:45:21 -0500

Happy canada day everbody!

so Ive been doing pretty good lately. I know, its been forever. deal with it.

i love all of canada :)

from sea unto sea

true north strong and freee

Okay, so last month posted that my biggest fear is suicide. Now I have a bigger one.

Wed, 19 May 2010 19:43:00 -0500

I’m afraid of myself…

If I was afraid of, say, spiders, I could just avoid spiders. But how do I avoid MYSELF? It’s always there. The constant fear.

Because… Well because I can’t tell if I’m real. I can’t trust myself. I’m afraid of myself commiting suicide. I’m afraid of my lack of self-control.

What is real, anyway?

"Friends forever…you know too much"

Wed, 19 May 2010 19:38:33 -0500

“Friends forever…you know too much”

Like the new theme?

Wed, 19 May 2010 16:26:48 -0500

New site and title and everything. Learning to play.

Learning to play this weird thing called life :)

I realized just how easy it is..

Sat, 17 Apr 2010 22:35:18 -0500

It’s so easy to kill yourself.

To pop some pills.

To wield a knife.

To cut my wrist.

To jump.

It’s to easy. It’s something I could do in a matter of seconds. Something I don’t want to do. But that’s just right now. What about later?

What if I don’t stop myself when I’m angry, or sad, or something one day? What if I do it..

Suicide. My biggest fear. Fear that I’ll do it. Fear that my friends will..

reading a really cool new book...

Sat, 17 Apr 2010 22:31:45 -0500

The Black Magician Trilogy. They’re really good.

aipom: I HATE HOMOSEXUALS why?

Mon, 12 Apr 2010 21:07:53 -0500

aipom:

I HATE HOMOSEXUALS

why?

...

Mon, 12 Apr 2010 20:06:08 -0500

You’ve seen my tears fall

But you’ve never seen me cry

I wish you knew

How much I want to die

And if you ever found out

And then asked me why

YOU’RE the reason YOU’RE the reason

That I want to die…

Computers.

Mon, 12 Apr 2010 20:03:31 -0500

They are becoming a lot less interesting now. Maybe it’s just because my book is so good.

(via fuckyeahfuckinggorgeous) i should make a photo of me like...

Tue, 30 Mar 2010 11:33:31 -0500

(via fuckyeahfuckinggorgeous)

i should make a photo of me like this. whoa lovee.

I should make a limit on post for this blog. Once I reach like...5000, I have to stop. 4846 to go. (yeah I used a calculator)

Tue, 30 Mar 2010 11:28:18 -0500

I'm eating gross east indian instant food. This shit was never meant to be instant.

Tue, 30 Mar 2010 11:26:30 -0500

Photo

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 22:48:17 -0500

The Blindside

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 22:43:44 -0500

i just watched it with my mom. it was very good :)

just a filler update post.

nothing to new.

i burned myself with a nail.

yeah tahts it.

bye!

"Don’t worry about 2012, the Jonas Brothers have been to the year 3000.."

Tue, 16 Mar 2010 19:43:10 -0500

“Don’t worry about 2012, the Jonas Brothers have been to the year 3000..”

- i hate the jb dont worry :)

Some huge thing is going on in my school..

Tue, 16 Mar 2010 19:29:58 -0500

With the new girl Sophia.

I don’t know if I wrote about her. She’s a bitch. She went out with Brandon, on the third day she arrived. Three weeks later she got ‘bored of him’ and dumped him. Pretty fucked up. Now everyone hates her, and Brandon, being a bit of a dumbass (even though she deserved it) posted a video on youtube about her being a bitch. Like a whole song that he wrote. Within like, ten minutes, there was 139 comments agreeing and laughing. Sophia, being the fucked up whiny thing she is (yes I said thing), she told the school. People have been getting called down to the office all day to say what they know about it. I hope she leaves. She has no friends anymore :). I’m so glad about that.

Yeah I know, mean, but that’s what you get for being a total bitch.

We’re doing a unit on human nature. It’s fun. And we’re doing an essay that is an obituary. We get to make up our entire lives. Mine is so cool. I’m married to my wifey, but I made her a boy in this because I’m not a lesbian. So my name is Sarah Taylor :D. Pretty cool eh?

I have 9 children.

1.Lyric (boy)

2.Kieran (boy)

3.Aayen (girl)

4.Rebekah (girl)

5.Jaimee (boy)

6.Dashiel (boy)

7.Ryan (boy)

8.Memory (boy)

9.Philosophy (girl)

Pretty good eh?

I’m a doctor. I cured A.I.D.S. (and died from it) I lived in Africa for four years, then moved after getting shot in Afghanistan visiting my husband who was fixing planes for the army. I created T.W.I.I.O.H, which is focused on human rights and freeing the world of poverty.

And I’ll figure out some other things later :).

Bye for now!

Sarah <3

formspring me :)

Tue, 16 Mar 2010 07:50:58 -0500

formspring me :)